Meanwhile, this video has been on repeat since Brandon introduced it to me a few nights ago. Totally intrigued by it.

Remember you accommodating to my crazy obsession with caramel frappacino which led you to only drinking that for all your meals?

Remember when you helped me write the whole essay cause I was too caught up with other work?

Remember the hazy night where you were walking me home then I spot my mom right in front of us? ..I turned 180 degrees immediately and you were totally oblivious to what was happening..

Remember when we tried singing our favourite song together and we could never never get that one particular line right? ..after that, when we sang that song, we would only hum the tune of that line..

Remember the stack of rocks you placed together when you were in Korea?

Remember we would call every other every night and listen to each other talk about everything? ..then to conversations that drag for hours in total silence..

Remember when we quarrel and fight every single night to something that we never knew would ever matter?

Remember when I jokingly told you that when my brother finds a girlfriend then I’ll bring you over to see my parents? Well, the time has come but sadly, I have no one to bring over this time..

Remember the time this was a place I would write all my thoughts everyday? ..then to just simply a site that would only last till the next renewal date..

Click here if you want to live

Having sleepless nights everyday for the past week has been a turmoil. Tried pushing things away from my head but they just wont listen. It’s like telling a nasty bugger to fuck the hell out of your mind but it had already made itself a comfortable bed, unwilling to budge. I couldn’t concentrate on anything, matters kept piling up, emotions kept going down.

We can work together out of this and everything is going to be alright, you said. How come I feel that it just boils down to me trying very hard with no response on end? Or mm I just delirious?

Working over the weekends, staying in the office till wee hours in the morning, treasuring time with friends over dinner, trying my best to turn up for celebratory occasions, taking care of myself, spending more time with my family and targeting to hit more tennis balls than picking them up (lol) are most of the things revolving in my life now.

Being able to accomplish everything you wanted would be a mandatory to others, but just truly learning about yourself and being happy I guess is the most important.

Relationships are funny like that huh? One point of your life we’re able to share about everything, talk for hours in the middle of the night about nothing, next, we are complete strangers. Neither of us wanted this to happen, but it just did.

I restarted this because I wanted this blog not be personal, but I guess I’ll let this one slip.